i just hope that everyth will be alright. :')

i hope i wont disappoint her again too.

i really did practice.. :(

every time you ask me how,

i mean i really did practice,

but i really dk how to reply and answer you :(((

seeing you always reminds me of what happened that time .. :(

and each time, my heart breaks.

i guess i'm really a disappointment to her esp ..

she selected me to the camp, but 2 out of 1 was chosen .

i didnt expect much too anw.

i knew i couldnt make it too .

but idk why it kindaaa break my heart a little . hahhs

i dk why you separated that too :(

that will pull me even much down .

but.

但是还是真的很感谢你，至少让我知道了。:')

when that news was announced, i was speechless ? i didnt know how to react ..

i don't understand. i really don't .

and WHY ?

its a heart breaking news.

i know i didnt do a good job .

but ..

i tried .

some things are kept to be unsaid .

老子：“ 胜人者有力，自胜者强 ” 。

“ 你知道吗 ？”

i hoped.

but as i said,

Expectations are directly proportional to Disappointments isn't it ?

lots of things happened ..

dont think i'll be able to list them all out..

wow okayy so again it has been like 3 months since i last posted ..