it how rare and amazing i survived this whole week without hving my 'used to it noon nap' .

and also sleep near midnight every day.

hms. i survived.

realising. i'm running out of time.

and i'm super worried and scared totheverymax. :(((

i'm really pressurized. all the talks and everyth..

streaming year..

perhaps my somewhat deprovement made me lost alot of confidence?

when i dont even hv much confidence at the beginning?

but knowing class tests and all wasnt even fair too.

where ppl alrdy know what were the questions coming out.

sighh

or mayb its jus a comfort for myself? mayb not?

and its sad , more or less..

knowing you arent @ that position anymore.

that you got same marks as ur frens.

and ur standard deproved?!? TT

idk.. i'm worried for everyth..

i'm afraid i cant push myself to do it.

i'm scared of regretting.

i'm scared ...

and i flunk my math COMMON TEST today...

before that it was break time.

teached and discussed w frens and then...

MIND WAS TOTALLY BLANK SUDDENLY.

SERIOUSLY.

and during the test still remains.

and i'm totally freaked out and there were distractions too..

and not enough time.

flunked it.

everyth.

and. tmr. taking back RB..

i thought we're not taking it back this term.

and EOY is like jus round the very corner and then we get back our rb and its gona be exam soon?!

and for the very first time i guess.

i dont.

wanna.

get back.

my rb.

perhaps its becoz i alrdy knew the outcome?

mayb i didnt work hard enough?

i jus feel utterly disappointed in myself i guess.

failed to meet my target...

i hv to work on it.........