feel like texting him somehow but i wont and cant!.

and then

i feel so tired and stressed up and sad.

also becoz of hwsss and piano..

haizz

i want to rest..

but becoz of this one wk holiday, cant even rest, there's sooo much hwsss to do and then next term is so short, mid year examss all coming up!!

and then holiday still got camp!..

and then still hv long co practices becoz of syf..

and then piano...
i always didnt practice..
and then feel very guilty everytime..
i told the truth to my father..
and then he cant accept it.
he said what do you mean by dont hv time to practice and then feel guilty always.
he said thats becoz of my time planning fail.
and said i need to plan my time.

haizzz...

piano is getting harder and harder..
and haizz
i feeling veryy stress........

:(

i got first in class positions and has maintained..
and i tell myself always that i need to maintain..
and can i like ask for smth as a reward?
i dont dare to ask for one.
i've wasted my parents money alot of times alrdy..
becoz of piano as mentioned and that for doctors fees coz i dont take care of myself..
so i dont dare to even ask for smth.
you can say that i dont hv the right to ask for one bahh.

haizzz

see,

homeworkssssssss
studiessssssssss
relationshipssss
pianoooooooooooo
friendshipssssss
schstuffssssssss

ughhhhhhhhhh
so much thingss..
i'm so stressed up and worried of.............
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(