got my results.

freak.

somehow.

mayb there's a error..

haizz

but nvm...

sighh

showed my rp to my parents..

i always wanted to see and know their expressions when they see my rp.

and i always longed to hear smth from my parents or my family.

i always longed to hear smth from them.

but often always, they said nth.

what i longed for is.

a word a compliment from them.
jus one will do.

jus a well done?
good job?
keep up the good work?

but often it seems, the results i get is expected?

but it really also takes hard work and pressure to attain or even maintain those results.

i pay attention in class, i do my homeworks, i do well for my class test, i studied, i do my exams and ofc, with the stress and pressure.

it isnt easy actually.

what i want, mayb is jus a word of compliment from them.?

but i understand.
i do.
that they hv their own expressive ways.
showing that they know.
i know, i feel it.

i shouldnt hv said those.?

thankss my family.
though what my father wants is me to be happy.
he doesnt want me to get good grades but be happy.
thanks pa, but i want to stay the way it is becoz i want to be good in smth.
i want to do it.
and thanks mummy.
thanks for the shoes today!
i'm really very happy that i got my new shoes for outdoor!
thanks mummy.
thanks pa, thanks ma, for working so hard to earn money to provide us good living conditions and to continue to provide me in my learning for piano.
knowing that learning piano is veryy ex.. it increases very grade..
thanks so much.

but i'm really, really really always very guilty abt.
that i'm really not a talent in piano.
that i feel i'm wasting your money.
that i feel so lousy and i feel really sorry.

its my fault for not practicing.
i'm sorry.
really very.
sorry.

i'll try my best, i really hope so.
i hope i wont be a disappoint to you all.

thanks and sorry.